I WANT THIS DRESS SO BAD.
Oh and do you know that Emma Watson has a brother?




Another one of god's magnificent creations.

I wonder how it feels to be irresistibly attractive.

I cut my hair

When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you.

HIS MOVES ARE LIKE :D

I bet this will all make sense to JY.

Guys' Generation - Graduation Ball 2010

HAHAHAHA.

HP7

I ♥ Harry Potter. Perhaps it's just a leftover piece of my childhood imagination, but I'd transfer to Hogwarts in a heartbeat and befriend a house elf if I had the chance. Sad to say, HP7 was quite a disappointment. I wanted more action. For what it's worth, at least Emma Watson was in the flick.

AMAZING RACE

I can't believe team Jumba is out.
SOMEONE STAB ME.

I read this from tumblr :
Apparently, Dan wasn't allowed on set during the Ron/Hermione kiss because his giggling was "too distracting".

HAHA.

4/11/10

terribly disgusted.

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

IS THERE ANY PLACE WHERE I CAN WATCH DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES AND NOT HAVE TO ANSWER SOME STUPID SURVEY?
GOD.

The stereotype of girls.
I need to break away from it.

god. I miss them.

I'D HAVE TO SHOW YOU THIS.

LAUGHS!

I had tons of stuff to blog about last night.
But it's gone now.
So yeah.

Guys in V-neck tees : ♥

I'm a legendary bitch that was poked on Facebook by Lady Gaga on the X-factor.
I WANT NUMBER 15!

HOLY CRAP.

Don't ever allow anyone make you feel small.

I'm attempting to sew a pencil case.
Considering my failures in all my sewing experiences,
I have a feeling that this will not be an exception.

Swam today.
I'd almost forgotten how it felt like to be immersed in water.
To think swimming used to be my best sport that I could excelled in.
GOD.
I miss the high-fives Uncle Sam used to give me.
and how he always let me choose the stickers first after each training due to my OUTSTANDING performance
and how I loved the Spongebob stickers and always took them
and how I could swim 20 laps at one time and not feel tired.
& now, I can barely manage 10laps.
LIFE SUCKS.

I love the feeling of being annoymous in a city I've never been before.
I love the feeling of jumping off a cliff and having something to catch you.
I love the feeling of picking up a new and awesome book.
I love the feeling of seeing someone or something pretty.
I love the feeling of hanging off something.
I love the feeling of being in a gigantic library all by myself.
I love the feeling of having a treehouse all to myself where demons cannot enter.
I love the freedom.

GOOD MORNING LOVELY!
IT'S. OFFICIALLY. OVER. (kinda)
gosh, I'm so happy that I can fly.

I've realised I've never ever ever ever won a single wolfteam match.
Probably because I'm retarded.
I take 5 seconds to spot my enemy,
2 seconds to aim,
and 1 second to die.
gosh.
I'm deliberating whether to clean my room or not.
Should I?
It seems..... Clean.
whatever.

I have a secret to tell you
I'm part of dumbledore's army.
Embarking on my journey to take out voldermort on 25 Nov 2010.

I’m mistaken for a flirt when I’m friendly.
I’m mistaken for a bitch when I’m blunt.
I’m mistaken for sad when I’m alone.
I’m mistaken for shy when I’m quiet.
Quit assuming and get to know me.

Earphones in, volume up.
Therapy for my epic failure at physics SA2.

If you find it hard to breathe, then hold your breath. Which is harder?

Would it be possible for Emma Watson and Justin Bieber to get together? :/

I burst out laughing while my dad was screaming at me.
Looks like I'm getting used to being indifferent :)

I'm SOOOO gonna get that zara bag! :D

I want need a Tiffany and Co. necklace.

It's official.
Emma Watson is bloody hot.

FYI : I do judge you when you're using poor grammar.

It's raining,
it's pouring,
my social life is boring.

Next time came earlier than expected.
I WANT A GOLDEN RETRIEVER LIKE SO FRIGGING BAD.

I swear doing up a scrapbook is some Herculean task.
It's my first time doing up something for my mum's birthday,
anyone's birthday as a matter of fact.
and I swear I'm never going to do it again.
I'm clumsy, so making stuff is definitely a no no.
And I think I'm gonna grab something at some store for my mum's birthday present.
Seriously, my gift is not presentable at all.
Damn, should have just shared the coach wristlet with my Sis and Justin.

Anyway,
HAD CRABS YESTERDAY AT STILLS ROAD TO CELEBRATE MY MUM'S BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE.
and the black pepper one blew me away.
okay, this is random.
This suddenly struck me.
Based on past experiences,
I think bus drivers are awesome.
Friendly people I should say.
:)
I'm done here.
Till next time!

Life's good these days.
Though I don't mind having one of this :



















:)

BRB: Be Ready Bitch.

I really miss the bond we shared. I mean, who wouldn't miss that comfortable feeling with a person. How we could talk for hours about everything, anything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Can't forget all the ridiculous stuff we did. Stupid or not, everything was just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the "remember whens" I remember it all. And it's funny what life does, how it could just give you things and take it away so soon. I really can't get it to my head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way I learned one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up.
-tumblr.

he's smokin'

I want to be in America, right about now.

Today was destined to be a really good day.
MY URBAN OUTFITTERS DRESS FINALLY AMAZINGLY AWESOMELY CAME IN TODAY.
I was looking forward to it.
And then, shit happens.
SHIT ALWAYS HAPPENS.
Can you imagine my utter dismay when the strap broke when I was trying it for THE FIRST TIME?
god. save me.

I need to push myself further.

DARN.
I KEEP HAVING DEJAVUS TODAY.

So maybe I talk too much. My laugh isn’t as adorable as it could be. I’m loud, but than I can be quiet. Sometimes I can act like a little kid, other times I can be a stuck up bitch. I’ll get annoying, clingy and angry every once in a while. But that’s what makes up me. And if you don’t love all of me, just don’t bother loving me at all.

I want someone I can go to. Someone I can tell my secrets to. Someone who won't judge me for the mistakes I've made. I wanr someone who understands. I want someone who hears, not just listens. I want someone who says goodnight to me, and prays to god they get the chance to say good morning. I want someone who knows my quirks. I want someone who wipes my tears away. I want someone who needs me. I want someone who cares.

STOP JUDGING ME.
I'm only human.

Temptations

"How come," he asked, "there's no gravestone?"

Gus looked at the freshly turned earth. "It's too soon," she said.

Chris nodded and stuffed his hands in the pockets of his coat. "Which way is the top?" he asked.

Gus looked at him dumbly. "What do you mean?"

"The head," he explained. "Which end is Emily's head at?"

Shocked, Gus glanced wildly around the cemetary. The plots were not straight, but fairly haphazard. However, a predominant number of headstones were facing a certain way." I guess the far end," she said. "I'm not sure."

Chris walked away to kneel at the grave again, and Gus thought, Ah, of course. He wants to talk to her. But to her amazement Chris straddled the slight mould and lay down on top of it, his arms holding close to the flower arrangements he was crushing, his head and shoes just spanning the six feet, his face pressed into the earth. Then he stood up, dry-eyed, and walked back to the Volvo. Gus put it in gear and continued along the cemetary road, shaking with the effort not to look at her son, whose mouth was ringed with a lipstick of soil as branding as any kiss.

-Jodi Picoult

The Pact.

I'm awkward, inappropriate and weird.
Repulsive, bad-tempered and morally revolting.
Quarrelsome, sinful and absolutely pathetic.

and yes, I am having a hard time.

Sleepover with WQ was AWESOME!

Home Alone Day One

I am officially screwed for tomorrow's tuition.
That pile of PYQ lies on my table, untouched.
DML.

Back to the topic of Home Alone Day One.
No encounters with supernatural phenomenon.
All in all, I am seriously not accustomed to being alone.
Lack of communication.
I find my left brain communicating with my right.
Pathetic huh?
For what it's worth, god has showered love upon me,
keeping me entertained with the YOG which passed by my house.
and as much as this may sound unbelievable,
I saw a balloon from my window today.
It disappeared into the clouds.
I don't know why, but it seemed symbolic to me.
Oh well, shall attempt to make breakfast tomorrow.
this is an uninteresting post.
Abort operation to "publish post".


Btw, I love Jessie's XiaoBai.
Had fun.

It never was.

And I believe, that punch had hurt. BIG TIME.

Insecurity.

12.27, not what I had in mind.

My itouch crashed again.
and I'm waiting for its miraculous revival, like the last time.
DAMN.
why does this always happen to me?

Dear Min Jeung and Ga Hyun,
you shall be dearly missed.

Tell me again why I love basketball.
IT'S AWESOME.
and that, is an understatement.
agree with me on that, kwx.

School has been the usu. lately,
though stress is settling down.
School immersion programme has been FUN.
I SO BADLY WANNA HOST THOSE KOREANS.
They look cute with their SUPER BOB HAIRSTYLES & their TOWERING FIGURES.
bought subway cookies for them,
I doubt they've ever tried it.
I mean, they gave me WANG WANG and said that it was a cookie.
Oh well. At least the wang wang was nice.
Btw, DAMN THAT CHEM SPA.

I fell into your arms.
You caught me, again.


Shut up and smile:)

THEY NEED A STARBUCKS DELIVERY TRUCK. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

Rain from the heavens.
On the basketball court
Dancing.
this is me.

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点语委 点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾丢在大雨的街
以后管他是谁。

Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
falling apart

Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
slow me down,slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down

and then his fingers flowed swiftly across the ivory,
and the room was filled with a composition so complex, so luxuriant,
it was impossible to believe only one set of hands he played.
The music slowed,
transforming into something softer,
and to my surprise, I detected the melody of his lullaby weaving through the profusion of notes.
Then, the music became unbearably sweet.
I couldn't speak.

Get a grip.

It's unbelievable.

It was just yesterday when I was harping about the absence of green tea frappucino in my life.
And today, Mr Leong promised to get me one, or rather, I can claim it from him, due to my outstanding ability to do a pull-up (guys) without a jump-start.
Well, much of that muscle-power should be attributed to basketball.

Moving on, Napfa was okay.
OH YA.
IT'S OFFICIAL.
THE DON'T-YOU-DARE-SACRIFICE-TIME-FOR-STUDY-TO-PLAY-BASKETBALL-REGIME HAS FAILED.
utterly.
Not that you know about the regime though.
I have no dicispline whatsoever.


Thank you for making me your selection.

Lyrical Jazz

IT'S BEEN MONTHS SINCE I LAST HAD MY STARBUCKS GREEN TEA FRAPPUCINO.
IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE.

School was the usu. today.
apart from the part when I had screwed up my LC.
This time, I ain't being neurotic.
You have no idea how bad it is.
Moving on, I have a math test tomorrow and a chem test on friday.
And I'm having 0 % productivity.
I swear it's not me,
It's the computer that's keeping me from work.
what can I say?
SCREW MATH THENDAMN CHEM.
or would you want them to happen simultaneously?
Life's been a chore these days.
real chore.
DML.

and I'm sooo looking forward to Napfa tomorrow?

Friendships formed on the basis of gossip.
Built upon others' sorrow.
and I'm thankful for not being part of it.

I don't think anyone can actually live my life.
Because I can't even do so myself.

I need a trip to the day spa, badly in fact.

Helpless.

Doubt. Once again.
Every Single Time.
This happens.
Maybe he isn't all that perfect after all.

Beauty.

Distorted perception of it.

Paradox.
The irony of it all.

One more reason to catch Harry Potter.

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me.
Who made you king of anything.?

sorry.
that's all I can manage.

How girls always think they're special
This, I do not comprehend.
How they think that their prince,
will sweep them off their feet
and kiss them on their lips.
Living in perceived happiness,
I guess.
Why can't they just see that we're all just the same.
Too same, in fact.

Thank you for that memory.
And I am absolutely in love with Grilled Cheese Sandwhich and our ALL-AMERICAN Breakfast :)

This muffled sorrow lingers around me,
mocking at my incompetence.
Engulfed in it, I can't even breath.
Hope left,
leaving me standing alone,
marvelling at my stupidity.

I shouldn't have even tried, I confess.
This time, even ice-cream can't help.
What can I do then?
I give up.

I'd have to say,
Damn this haircut of mine.

Great appreciation to KWX,
for volunteering his time off last saturday as a shopping partner.
For I did enjoy myself.
Thank you.

WQ tee, this is for you, in return for :
"You're great, and amazingly BEAUTIFUL. STUNNING. And I like your SMAIYEZ", and that had no doubt, made my day.

Wanqi Tee, I hope you see this one day.
You should realise how phenomenal you are.
How so miraculous was your birth,
that had brought much joy to the world.
and without question, brought happiness to those around you.
You should realise how wonderfully weird your spasms of energy are,
how you make us all laugh and marvel at your choice of time.
You should realise how beautiful you are,
how your features are matched perfectly
and how your inner self shines through as well.
And now, here's to you.
Thank you.

What is the essence of love?
I ponder.
The epitome of happiness?
or the everlasting beauty perceived by the blinded eye?
For me,
there is no essence of love.
It is the inexorable truth, you must realise.
Girl meets Boy. Girl falls in love. Girl gets hurt.
Left alone, drowning in memories.
He, who once held her hand and promised of eternal commitment, leaves.
Leaving her bound to the product of her imagination.
what is love then?
fake promises, I believe, is love.

Dance.

It took me months to forget you.
It took you ten seconds, to make me fall in love with you all over again.

I want a best friend of the opposite sex who will be there for me when everything's wrong. That I can talk with about anything and everything. Talk about other guys and girls, talk about how thankful we are to have each other. He is whom I can hug at ease and not feel awkward, he is whom I can just have fun and not be mindful, whom I can totally have fun with.

that's the last straw.
You pushed that big red button.
I loved you.

those numbers broke me today.

I swear I'd change.

WHOAMI
THISISTHEQUESTIONINEVERTHOUGHTI'DASK

Carousel was a disappointment today.
Wasn't without complaints.
plus, it was damn awkward with Justin joining us,
It was like everyone was involved in a conversation without me.
AWKWARD.
and and, I pulled off an outfit at the last minute and surprisingly, it was not bad.
COMPLIMENTS TO ME :)

I reverted back to blogger again.
Couldn't stand its absence.
Plus, inspiration seems to flow much better on blogger than on tumblr.
I'm gonna miss those pretty pictures though.
As I was saying,
CHARM-ED with Wanqi 2 days ago.
LOTSA FUN.
and and IT'S FINALLY OVER. I've been waiting for this day for a really long time.
But I'm still crossing my fingers for monday.
Inter-class games. We won 3/8 but lost to 3/7.
Played really bad in 3/7's game, I mean me.
but oh well, *quoted from Seng Leong*,
I should totally just have fun and to screw everything else.
Oh well.
And stop giving me that look.
It's getting extremely disgusting.
GOD. I don't.

Anyway,
No matter how you treated me, I'd have to still say Happy Birthday, Brother.

If I could, I would totally send a punch right up your nose. Idiot.

SLEEPOVER WITH JY WAS SUPER DUPER FUN.
MY LOVELY BONES :)
AND BANGS HAIRCUT :)

hey.
you fell in love with me.
and now it's the total opposite.

Had a close-to awesome time with SH today for lunch :)
I can't believe how much I missed scolding her
BITCH :)

3 more minutes.

I heard something unexpected.
GOD.
btw, thanks for waking me up! :)

I love my life right now.
But wait till something screws it up once again.
I'd still have to thank god though,
for at least letting me have a few days of solace.
CRAP TALK.
whatever. flips hair.

WANQI & FATIN GOT ME PRESENTS!
WOOTS.

that perfect smile.

that perfect grip.

that perfect you.

the beautiful eyes.

the beautiful sound.

the beautiful you.

Of man's intelligence, yet swayed by you.
that very thing men dread and pray for.
I fell in love with you.

did you forget ever holding my hand.
did you regret ever calling my name.
did you forget.
don't forget about me.

our love ended on march 23rd.

I think JUSTIN BIEBER will be a bigger hit than all the other singers.
Unless his voice breaks.

You tuck me in,
Turn out the light
kept me safe and sound at night
little girls depend on things like that

Brush my teeth and comb my hair
had to drive me everywhere
you were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldnt sleep at night
Scared things wouldnt turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who youll be
cant go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
dont you worry hold on tight.
I promise you that there will come a day
Butterfly Fly Away
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)

You got your wings now you cant stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
We been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do
Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away

Tomorrow everything changes.
Xinyi, you can pull through.

I think inspiration is a really big thing.

Why do men have to cheat?

I'D HAVE TO POST THIS.
WANQI SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY :)
I guess she was really surprised though we did accidentally gave out some hints.
But it was REAL REAL FUN.
I remember how we went up and down her lift to just guess the floor she lives in.
and how we were late for 2 min :) Ooops.
And how jingyi came and how we baked cheesecake together.
And filmed a movie too x)
Remembered how me and Fatin stupidly banged our head on Jingyi's ceiling :)
and how we acted like crazy people in the condo for fear of wanqi looking from her window.
FUN.FUN.FUN.

LOVE JY & WQ & FT.
THEY ROCK KICK-ASS ACTION

I HAVE TO POST THIS.
I'D HAVE TO ADMIT THIS
CAMP WAS REAL FUN.
Hungry Cheer and 3/5 Cheer. rocks. kick-ass action.
HIGH ELEMENTZ ROCKS.
ADRENALINE RUSH. friggin fun.
zip-line, felt like suicide. rock climbing. GOD. I REACHED THE TOP!
And the high high one. I climbed too. super fun.
And Sam asked me.
"are you a guy?" laughs.
That's me. I love adrenaline rush esp. EVERYDAY.
AMANDA (TRAINER) IS ALSO LOVED.
TIMOTHY. LOVED. He removed us from TOILET duty. woohoo
cause he made a pact with yoke mun & me to do sth.
FUN.FUN.FUN.
god. how I wish I was thr now.
even though I hate washing dishes
& eating real quick
& bathing in 5 min.
anyways, after camp, we saw the trainers at MACS.
DID THE HUNGRY CHEER IN FRONT OF THEM.
super fun.
PAYBACK!! :)


how I wish

The Show Lyrics

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cuz it's too much
Yeah it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried)
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

it's funny how we don't talk to each other.
even though I've known you all my life
But somehow, I know you'd always be there for me.

i feel tired by everyday trying to make myself blend in.
I know I don't.
AT ALL.

I WANNA BE ME AGAIN.

CROSS COUNTRY 2010 WAS REAL FUN.
2ND and I had no idea how I ran.
:)

I'm praying for
- the worm that died yesterday on friday, march 5, 2010.
- Janelle, my recess bud.
TAKE CARE :)

Flag day was GREAT fun.
Hanged out with childcare bunch of peeps :)
REUNION:).
Since my clique was either at chingay or at voices III.
Went all the way to orchard.
The people there were really generous :D.
I got rejected at my first try.
WHY?
Jingwen taught me how to pick those ppl though:).
And that led to the continuous filling up of our tin:):):)
plus, me and jingwen were damn funny.
There was this caucasian right in front of us.
But we asked that damn buff guy behind him for donations.
Hehe. and there was this street performer, and we both looked at each other.
And both gave tips:).
Great minds think alike.
We went shopping too.
& yammi yougurt.
Yum-oh.

3 more days and I'd soar and fly. Somehow, basketball is the only thing that's keeping me going.

it's hard when you realised that you've been a jerk.

Jingyi came my hse today. Had fun. Remembered the time where amanda and sara came :)

Dear lord, help me.

I'm crying.

Gosh. I bought another dress from zara today. I wasn't supposed to buy anything. I just passed by unfortunately. Damn.

I ask myself if I made the right choice. Passion doesn't work.

I find myself thinking.

I hate this feeling.
It makes me lose control.

you were lucky.
I had no one.
No one at all.

hey peeps.
Missed me?
LOL.

I keep listening to it.
It's just so beautiful.

Take my hand,
Take a breath,
Pull me close,
Take one step,
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me
(Now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
You'll keep dancing
(To keep dancing)
Where ever we go next.

It's like catching lightening,
The chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million,
The chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together,
We just keep on getting better.
So can I have this dance?
(Can I have this dance)
Can I Have this dance?

Take my hand,
I'll take the lead,
And every turn will be safe with me,
Don't be afraid - afraid to fall,
You know I'll catch you through it all.

And you can't keep us apart
(Even a thousand miles can't keep us apart)
Cos my heart is where ever you are.

It's like catching lightening,
The chances of finding someone like you.
It's one in a million,
The chances of feeling the way we do.
And with every step together,
We just keep on getting better.
So can I have this dance?
(Can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance?

Ohh no mountains too high and no oceans too wide,
Cause together or not, our dance won't stop.
Let it rain, let it pour.
What we have is worth fighting for.
You know I believe that we were meant to be.

Oooohhh.

It's like catching lightening,
The chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million,
The chances of feeling the way (way) we do.
And with every step together,
We just keep on getting better.
So can I have this dance?
(Can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance?

Can I have this dance,
Can I have this dance?

I love doodlebuddy!
It's fun.



I need a good last meal.